Monday, March 8, 2010

Perspective

I do have to admit, today has been an extremely long trying day! The day didn't start off so good so I had a feeling court wasn't passing. When I got the call from Anna I just broke. I was so looking forward to passing court today and calling him my own officially. It feels sometimes like we are caught in a loop that is absolutely never ending! The words God will not give us more than we can handle keep going through my mind. A little more of what happened today, we did not pass court due to MOW@ not working, they were suppose to. The judge also is not happy and is extremely frustrated with them. He actually sent a subpoena to MOW@ for that letter. They said that this has never happened before. Everyone is frustrated. I actually pulled into my garage and screamed at Satan to let my son go! I have made the decision that no matter what happens from this day forward I am not going to let it have an affect on my like it did today (completely unable to breath!). God is in control and I am going to continue to praise him and not stress of that which I can not control. In the right timing I will have my baby in my arms and all of this will fade away! This verse was posted earlier and I thought it so fitting:

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.”
James 1:2."

Please continue to pray with us, March 19th is going to be a day of celebration! First stop is going to be Starbuck's (I have given up coffee until we pass court, harder than I thought it would be)!

4 comments:

The Stagers said...

It sounds like God's grace is giving you good perspective today! We are just aching with you and will continue to persevere in prayer for your son to be released. We are trusting God and His goodness with you in the midst of this trial and the questions.
Anna (AWAA YG)

KLT said...

Psalm 10:12-18 (NKJV)
Arise, O LORD!
O God, lift up Your hand!
Do not forget the humble.
Why do the wicked renounce God?
He has said in his heart,
“You will not require an account.”
But You have seen,
for You observe trouble and grief,
To repay it by Your hand.

The helpless commits himself to You;
You are the helper of the fatherless.
Break the arm of the wicked and the evil man;
Seek out his wickedness until You find none.

The LORD is King forever and ever;
The nations have perished out of His land.
LORD, You have heard the desire of the humble;
You will prepare their heart;
You will cause Your ear to hear,
To do justice to the fatherless and the oppressed,
That the man of the earth may oppress no more.

Dear God, overcome wickedness and release our friends to whatever the future holds. Prepare their hearts to do your will, Lord. In the days to come, may your goodness be a force to be reckoned with because of their family. And just be near them to get themthrough these next few weeks, days, hours, this moment. In the strong name of Jesus, Amen.

Tracy said...

what a great attitude! I have no insightful words of encouragement, just keep taking it day by day holding on to God's big, strong arm - it's part of you and your little boy's life story and one day the pages will read more clearly. Praying and thinking of you often.

Melodie Monberg said...

When I heard the news on the yahoo group, I was so sad for your family. And then immediately I was reminded of the battle we are in when we adopt these precious children! It is a battle and one worth fighting for! Our family is battling for your dear son in prayer and we WILL NOT stop until he is home with you!

And bless you doing all this without coffee! Oh my, oh my!

Melodie