Amazing God.

Our God is an amazing God. I have definitely felt the prayers and support over the last few days. Last week was without a doubt the most difficult week we have went through with this adoption journey. It was so much, ups and downs, within a short timeframe. We have received so many emails of support and encouragement that I am overwhelmed with the love that is already there for our baby boy. Especially my friends in the yahoo group. Friends that I have never met face to face and have only interacted with over the internet. I do not know what we would do without this support system. They have been through the fire and have come out on the other side. As I was asking myself and God why on Thursday I received an email that said simply, maybe God gave this child to us because he knew we would continue to persevere for him. We would not give up without a fight. Any family who received this referral would have went through all these trials and maybe some families would have grown weary and gave up by now. I know without a doubt 100% in my heart that this child is the one we will call our own. We were made to be parents to this baby boy. I will not give up without a fight. That doesn't mean that this fight is not trying and emotionally exhausting. But I cling to the fact, the bible says God will not give us more than we can handle. Though we may feel like we can't handle one more thing and at the time it may be difficult but He has never left my side and He never will. He has put the right people in the right places to lift me up. When we were to weak to stand on our own, He put the people there to stand up for us. We are being held the entire way through this process. When we are weak, He is strong. It is in this I find my strength and comfort. It is my faith and love for God and more importantly, His love for me that will get us through. There have been numerous times this weekend where I just wanted to climb up in Jesus lap and not leave the comfort of his arms. I have been listening to the song by MercyMe "Keep Singing". The lyrics go like this:

Another rainy day
I can't recall having sunshine on my face
All I feel is pain
All I wanna do is walk out of this place
But when I am stuck and I can't move
When I don't know what I should do
When I wonder if I'll ever make it through

I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
Your the one that's keeping my heart beating
I gotta keep singing
I gotta keep praising Your name
That's the only way that I'll find healing

Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me
I gotta keep singing

Can I climb up in Your lap
I don't wanna leave
Jesus sing over me
I gotta keep singing

Oh You're everything I need
And I gotta keep singing


I have found great comfort and strength in music through this journey. It seems every day I find a new song that seems to speak to the journey we are on. I just turn up the radio really loud in the car and sing to God as loud as I can because when I can't find the words to say what I am feeling, there always seems to be a song that sums it up better than I could. Even though God already knows what is on my mind and in my heart. I love the fact that I am not in this alone, I have the comfort of my father's arms around me holding me up when I can not stand. I would be lost without Him.

Please pray as we start this week, we do not know what is going to happen or if things will move quickly. PLease pray for our hearts, strength and paitence as we start another leg of this journey and only God knows his plan. I am praying with all my heart that his plan is to bring our baby home! But no matter what his plan, I will continue to keep singing and praising His name because He is the one that keeps my heart beating!